She looked out her window at the sky filled with stars, how such a scene could be so beautiful yet so lonely. Her bed felt so empty and cold… Her body yearned for his touch, she imagined how his skin would feel against hers, and she imagined how his fingers would feel caressing her body and massaging her breasts. What kind of woman was she that she ached for a man that was not hers to have? He had made it clear when he left he had no interest in her. At least not in the way she desired, and she desired it very much so! Not just in a lustful manner but she loved him. She herself didn’t know when it had happened… Did she fall in love with him during his recent visit, or had she always loved him? Oh she knew better then to fall in love. Form the first time they met she knew he was only was going to bring her pain… And now years latter she’s realizing falling in love with him was unavoidable… The only way she could have stopped it was to cut him out of her life from the start…. But she knew that really that was never an option…. There was just something that pulled her to him… Something that connected them, she could barely understand it. She decided he had either chosen to completely ignore it or he was truly blind to it. Or was that just her way of concealing the truth from herself. Maybe he really didn’t have any feelings for her… But if he didn’t, would they have become what they were now ? But see there the problem is… What exactly are they? Friends? Lovers? Were they more than or less than that?? Did it really matter as long as she got to be with him…. Yes it did.. It mattered to her very much so….
It all started that one fated night many years ago…
She starred out the window, pen and paper in hand, taking in a deep breath she sighed. It’s no use I have no idea what to put in the letter, she thought to herself. How much of myself should I share and how much should I hold back. Beginning to pace the room her panic begin to well up inside. This is harder then I thought it would be, what if he does’t read it. No I have to do this she commanded herself to sit down and to start writing. Dear –
Saved by the door, relief filled her…
God bless you today and always!
ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
Hello Dear friends,
I ask you a question…. To Scrivener or Not to Scrivener?
It is a writing program I had a long time ago and it has changed since then. I Think it could be a great asset better then most out there… Hmmm. I just downloaded this file for the trial. thought you may like it too watch the video then decide its 40$ to buy but it may be very handy for you. at the end of this video he says their is a 20% off coupon but I haven’t got that far yet. I am half way done I am following text description and watching the video. I had the old version on my old computer and forgot what it was called till last week when I was talking to a friend and fellow Novelist. I have done a bit of research on it and its a little like “Ywrite5” which is free but much more… Just watch the video and decide if this is for you. It is pricey but I feel it is well with it my dear writer friends… I had a house full of people but I will be testing it out this week and will be able to fully to decide… I am wondering what you use if you write… I think this will come in handy with my fictions. Especially with organizations… I get stuck often because I keep everything in one folder for each story and some times that can be overwhelming and I get tired of going back and forth. So I want a handy tool where I can keep my mess and make it neat. I may not have the most organized house but when it comes to writing and my projects I am very organized and picky. I have to say the video and images made me expected something a little more high-tech then what I downloaded. Possibly the trial is 1.o but the the video is 2.0…. I have to look deeper into that when I am more awake….
Here are some links:
*35 min overview: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DthBJhBrYs
*1 hour and 30 Min: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XLXjMLEZ00E
You can get the free trial and buy it here: https://www.literatureandlatte.com/scrivener.php
After doing some research I found out why my Scrivener looks different in the videos. I knew it was a mac, and I had my guess they were using 2.0 and I had 1.0 well… I was right…. There is definitely a 20.0 But only for mac users….. So I will be waiting to buy… That’s to much money to put out twice… I’m disappointed…. Oh well….
God bless you today and always!
ღ╮╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮╭ღ╯
After two moths of planing and about $400.00 I had my first public appearance at a Spring Festival in Washington stare May 29 – May 31! The whole thing was a roller coaster ride of emotions. about a year ago I made he decision I would have a booth at the local festivals during the 2015 summer. I have a local friend Who just started her own business Selling ‘Clever Container’ products. https://www.facebook.com/JennifersCleverTreasures We decided to share a booth together. We dd our research and plans and before we knew it the summer had snuck up on us! Which split the registration and insurance fees. It was a lot more work then I expected it to be. Not only was I getting my stuff ready I was also her Business Consultant. ( My consulting page: https://www.facebook.com/A.Novel.Life )
I helped her get started setting up her page, creating her labels, Creating her Banner and more. When I was done with her stuff I realized how much I had to do still. Buying the books, a Banner Business Cards, Magnets, Demo products, Things to sell at the fest besides books to draw attention and of course we needed an Event Shelter. I bought a nice Yellow 12×12 $299.00 Colman for sale for $99.00.
When all that was settled we passed out fliers with in the county and handed out more then 50 businesses cards each. Honestly that was more then I expected to. Since I was going for it I decoded I wanted to raise awareness and collect donations for #ACHA and #MendedLittleHearts Because I am 1 out of 11o born with a heart defect.
When The day finally came to set up we were freaking out nervous! We decided to go early despite peoples suggestions which was a great thing because we got to choose our booth location at the Festival! With two separate businesses She took one side and I took the other but before we could set up our tables we needed to set up the tent. It isn’t a quick popup (which wold be a great Idea) When we first opened the tent bag We were surprised at how many poles and parts there were and we became over whelmed… Thank God my sister Amanda and her Husband were with us she is great at reading instructions. When we got it half way set up it looked like it wasn’t going to be taller then 3ft.. We started to panic… Jennifer called a local store to see if they had a 10×10 for sale…She was about to go get it with my brother-in-law when Amanda and I decided to keep setting up the tent just to be sure…. To out surprise and relief…… We gained the height we needed it was about 5’11 on the inside but it had lower sides to keep the sun out. Extremely pleased and tears and broken wallets averted we began to set up out sides of the booths. ^_^ All in all set up took about 4 hours, we were so glad we had decided to come early. We had a few issues with how to tie the banners and arrange the tables, once that was settled it all fell into place.
It was a high heat weekend and our helpers canceled due to the heat and illness so It was just her with her kids and I there for the three days. We decided to leave the big stuff but to take our important stuff home at night because of the stories we heard about thievery. And we used used every mussel we had doing so every morning and night. It took us about an hour set up and tear down time and by the last night we felt like pro’s. We made sure to come early and to stay late so we got great parking spots for he loading and unloading. But all in all despite the heat and sore mussels it was I think a great success. Jennifer who had a lot of great products was able to get the word out for future home parties. Due to the extreme heat There were not many people at the event as they had hoped for.. All the booths said they suffered costs due to the lack of people.
I truly am glad I did this I leaned a lot and I feel like I took the next step getting the word out about my books. I sold more then I thought and I met some really interesting people. I do have some tips tho if you are planning on doing your own event:
*One -Make sure you limit how much you will bring – less really is more. If you have to many things people won’t know what to look at first and your tables could look over crowded. Pulse your mussels will thank you later. One of the Booths near us was complaining about how little he sold and he kept trying to pawn off stuff to us.
*Two – Have a idea what you want your booth to look like so when set up time comes you aren’t panicking. Three make sure you come early no matter what they say. First come first serve is most event’s motto. We had quite a few people people upset because they came late and didn’t get to put their tents where they wanted. People were walking though the event before moat booths were set up we made most our sales in the mornings and evenings.
*Three – Know the location where you will be, and prep what you may need such as: Bandaids, water, food, food money, sun block, tape scissors, a coat if indoors, etc.
*Four and most important You have to talk to the people walking by, some will just pretend they don’t see you but others would have passed by if i had not said Hi. Don’t be a robot be yourself smile and be friendly. I don’t want to push my book on anyone It is quite personal but when I got over being shy (which is not the usually me) and I actually started talking to people I started getting more people. Be careful not to miss people who want to buy something tho because you talking to other people make sure you say Hi to everyone.
*Five Be – friend your tent neighbors. We were so lucky to be nest to some really nice guys, one a tent from Dish Network, and there was a Guy from Final Fight Radio. Which was nice because us bring to ladies in a crowed there were times when we needed them. Like when the drunk homeless guy wouldn’t leave. Or our last night when we had only half the help we had when we set up. We all helped each other out. The last thing you want at the event is enemies.
*Six- Don’t forget tables and Chairs… We shared the extra chairs we had with a neighbor booth.
*Seven- DO NOT Bring anything you cannot do alone. If its just you keep it super simple for set up and tear down. There were only about three tents with ony one person. But like I said you befriend others they will help you out most likely.
Don’t give up on your dreams no matter how long it takes you! You are awesome! That’s all I have to say other then I wish you could have been there if you weren’t and to those of you who were and who bought something – Thank you so much for coming it was great seeing you!
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ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
Let me ask you – How often do you wonder if what your doing has any purpose and meaning? How often do you question what your life is worth? To many people don’t see their own worth…. My aunt as an example. She was a: kind, smart, talented, caring, and fun actress who touched so many people ones she knew and didn’t ever meet. Sadly she never grasped her worth. She was so hard on herself, She would say I wish I could do better or was better. She was a wonderful woman who brought joy to so many. she touched so many lives in such great ways… Yet she didn’t value herself much.
We all live different lives, we all are unique individuals and we all have impact on others. It could be in our: local community; an online community – games, forums,chat-rooms, Facebook, YouTube instagram twitter, work; school; church; family; etc… Anytime you talk to someone else you are effecting or affecting their lives and day in some way. Do you make people smile? Or do you tear people down.. But….. He/she treats me like…… That doesn’t matter your not measuring their worth, you are measuring ours… We have need to take responsibly and be accountable how we treat others. You want to know what your worth is? Look at how you treat others..
We may say: I am who I am? I just want to be myself why do I have to be nice… The bible say treat others as you want to be treated. (Luke6:31) Even if you don’t believe in the Bible or God, it is a good rule to live by. So let me ask you – How do you want others to treat you? Sadly others may not threat you kind and there are some who will never treat you the way you wish they would… But that doesn’t affect your Value! So what if there is one person who doesn’t appreciate you… If you see it or not there are people who you touch.
Lets talk about our appearance next. Are we what society says is: overweight, thin, sexy, tall, short, beautiful, handsome, homely, athletic, etc? What else do they say about us? Wait!!!!!!!! That’s labeling!!! We may fit into one of those categories but that does not define our worth! Those labels can act as boosters or most common as restraints. We tie ourselves down by what others say we are or what we can do. We need to stop doing that. Because let me tell you Your worth is un-measurable, your value is priceless!
It doesn’t matter what you do, how you or how you look. Only you an decide your importance, our value, our worth. We are invaluable, Priceless, irreplaceable, precious, incomparable, unequaled.
I challenge you to do as I am doing: Tell yourself you are important, you are beautiful, handsome, sexy, and awesome! Tell yourself you can succeed and that you wont give up on whatever you are reaching for. DO it as often as you need to and you will start to be happier. We all get emotional and have down days but its just a moment in time, and it will pass. Stay strong and don’t be afraid to talk to others when you need encouragement and support. You have purpose and meaning. No one can be better you, you are un-matched.
I love ya – don’t forget you are awesome!!!
╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
“LIFE happens while you’re making other plans”-Unknown
I first saw that quote in the movie “Kuffs” Time flies so fast, choices are made, roads are traveled, plans, and dreams are made. It is a truth that is more real over the past years than it has ever been in my life. Don’t let disappointments broken plans and broken dreams get you down because God’s got a plan. I know it is really hard, at least it can be for me. When I think about where I want to be in life, all I have done and not done…. I have done a lot in my life… I have so many dreams and so many goals… Yet I often get lost in the reality of now. Now I feel like I am accomplishing so little… Especially with my broken foot and being unable to drive. The pressure I put on myself to be this amazing person wears me out… Sure I Have a short story and a small book published. But only one book out of the many I’ve been working on for years… I look at the past Five years I have definitely leaned a lot and experienced a lot… But I feel so far away from where I want to be and I often get lonely… Do you sometimes feel like that?
We have to do our best and make the most of every opportunity, and be Thankful for what we have. We can’t get lost in the “What ifs” we have to live in the now. That is the best I and you can do with Life… I believe God has a purpose for everyone but we also have free will. I don’t want to live with regrets. I don’t want you to have regrets either, so please follow your heart and listen to God. Every moment and every choice can and will affect your future… That includes how you treat others and what you say. “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.” –John 13:34-35
Make time to enjoy life, and don’t get so wrapped up in Must do’s and Have to do’s… They will get done. Take things one thing at a time and Don’t overload yourself and you will move forward one step at a time. Don’t over think because that’s a sure way to get stressed out which will lead to an emotional crash. Lets face it tho we all need a good cry once in a while. We all tend to bottle things inside until they explode… It is ok to cry. That is how God created us to be able to release our stress and feelings. And it is ok to talk to God honestly and Openly. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. -John 14:27
I know from experience. I took a huge leap of faith and moved across country and my life turned upside down! I keep bring that up because it was a huge deal. I know God won’t ever give you more then you can handle and you are never alone. “But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”-Philippines 4:19
I let go of the reins and I let God start guiding me completely. It hasn’t been the easiest road but it sure has been a wild adventure and I look forward to what God has for me in the future. I find peace when I don’t try to take the whole world on my shoulder. That is not easy for sure. We try so hard to Take charge and stay in control. But lets face it.. Sometimes in doing so we get lost in emotions, stress, needs, thoughts and we forget our main purpose. To lead others To Christ. To Love one another, which means being there for each other. (At least that is what I feel our main purpose is as God’s children.) “All things work for good for those who love the Lord” –Romans 8:28 Hold on to that when the going gets tough and remember you are never alone!
Sure we all have responsibilities. I am not saying neglect them.. But instead turn to God to help you with your needs and wants. And in doing so you will find comfort and peace.. ~Psalms 23~ We try so hard to be What we think we should be That God has to force us sometimes to take a break and just be in His presence. And Honestly where else would you want to be? That is where I want to be. Always in God’s will, Always in God’s Peace and love… No matter how hard things Get… I am so Glad I have Father God, Jesus and The holy Spirit with me. As do you! Do not be so hard on yourself. Only Jesus was perfect… It is impossible for us to be no matter how hard we try. But God loves us anyways and He wants the best for us!
For all men have sinned and have missed the shining-greatness of God.24 Anyone can be made right with God by the free gift of His loving-favor. It is Jesus Christ Who bought them with His blood and made them free from their sins. 25 God gave Jesus Christ to the world. Men’s sins can be forgiven through the blood of Christ when they put their trust in Him. God gave His Son Jesus Christ to show how right He is. Before this, God did not look on the sins that were done. 26 But now God proves that He is right in saving men from sin. He shows that He is the One Who has no sin. God makes anyone right with Himself who puts his trust in Jesus. -Romans 3:23-26 (NLV)
This has been my Yearly Reflection before my Birthday…
♥ you always
╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
My friend Kimmi tagged me for this on Instagram. I thought it was fun.
Since So few people are actually on Instagram and It’s about me. I thought I would Share it here in my Blog as well. I am sorry if you have read this already. I have to say It got me really thinking.. I leaned more about myself…
Here are 22 Facts about me.^.^
I am really surprised at how much I shared♥
1. I am a Christian, I live for the Lord!
2. I have an Associates in International Business, I had several business Dreams I hope one day to be able to Archive.
3. I have a Great Dane Dog But I would love to own a Lion!
4. I love People with a passion. I would love to go to school and get a Psychology and Pastors degree, so I So I could be a life coach of some sort, and Evangelize.
5. I am eating Ketyo now… I am a lot happier about myself now.
6. I am a Writer and Have my first book published “God Supplies and Miracles Happen”
7. I love Coffee!!! -Sushi, Milk Tea, and other Asian Delights as Much as I love Italian food.
8. Once I call you my friend your my friend for life. Unless you did something extremely horrible
9. I am part tomboy, clown, and part princess
10. I love animals of all kinds, I love leaning about animals
11. I Love: The wind, rain, cool weather rocks, water, weather.
12. My Favorite Bird is the Vulture – Ugly, gets along with all, Doesn’t kill unless the animal is dying. ♥
13. My dream is to go to Sweden.
15. I love Gummie Bears and Gummie worms by Black Forest
16. I don’t like Gossip, My pet ps are people talking bad behind my back. You have an issue with me tell me to my face.
17. I enjoy Korean drama’s, anime, cartoons, and movies of all sorts except horror!
18. I am empathetic, and bad at expressing myself, that is why I write
19. I collect Postcards, and playing cards with diff pictures on each cards among other things.
20. I love pen pal’s, I think that it should be preserved.
21. I don’t want to be rich and famous, but I’d love to be able to take care of my friends and family financially.
22. I’m Fascinated by: Dinosaurs, Bigfoot, space, and the Locknessmonster.
Life is hard, we often get lost in the things that have to be done and the things that we have to do. We even get lost in making sure that we get to have fun and do what we want. We get lost in our thoughts, pour plans and our goals…. Yes we have obligations and we don’t want to let people down. We have goals and desires and we want to follow our dreams. What are your dreams?
But why are we doing it? Why are we planing, why are we dreaming and what do we want most? Everything we do we are supposed to do it in love not just for the other people but love for our selves. We are important each and every single person and each and every single person has in me and that is not exactly like yours they have things and feelings that are not like you or me. So we have to do all that we do in love and when we do what we do in love no matter if it’s doing the dishes or going to coffee with the friend it’ll be much more pleasurable and you will feel more accomplished and joyful. We all need love to survive and people need need to feel appreciated needed. So listen more talk more and be there for each other more. When you’re by yourself be happy about who you are. You are Handsome and Beautiful, maybe not by the world’s standards but by Gods. And His opinion is all that matters… So do love yourself and have confidence. Because there’s no one like you your unique special and you touch people’s lives in ways that no one else can your life is important and I’m glad you’re alive!
╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯