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❀✎☆How was your weekend all? Long? I know what happened Friday really got me thinking.. I used to say this all the time but I feel like I don’t say it enough… LIFE IS SHORT! My grandma Sylvia, even in her in her 80’s, would say that “You should never grow up, enjoy life to the fullest”. We all have goals and dreams that we want to follow, yet the reality is that our needs get in the way. By the time most of us get done what ‘has to be done’ we are too tired and burned out to do what we want. We lock our dreams, goals and hopes up in a chest, but then the chest gets dusty and we forget about it. I don’t want to forget about my Dreams and neither should you. You need to make time to follow them. If it involves money then start saving. If it’s about health then get to it. Going after what you want in life is never easy. You have to fight for it. That includes love and relationships too. Nothing worth having is easy. Personally I am getting back on track, I was depressed for a while but I shook it off thanks to good friends and a change in my attitude. Don’t let the lies- “I’m not good enough”, “I don’t deserve it”, “I can’t do it” get in your way. Guess what, YOU ARE AWESOME! You have unique gifts no one else has and you are one of a kind. You need to believe in yourself..fight for yourself, because you are worth it! Go find your locked chest and open it!! Never say Never! ❀✎☆
Walt Disney said: “All of our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them.” -Truth
ღ╮╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮╭ღ╯
“LIFE happens while you’re making other plans”-Unknown
I first saw that quote in the movie “Kuffs” Time flies so fast, choices are made, roads are traveled, plans, and dreams are made. It is a truth that is more real over the past years than it has ever been in my life. Don’t let disappointments broken plans and broken dreams get you down because God’s got a plan. I know it is really hard, at least it can be for me. When I think about where I want to be in life, all I have done and not done…. I have done a lot in my life… I have so many dreams and so many goals… Yet I often get lost in the reality of now. Now I feel like I am accomplishing so little… Especially with my broken foot and being unable to drive. The pressure I put on myself to be this amazing person wears me out… Sure I Have a short story and a small book published. But only one book out of the many I’ve been working on for years… I look at the past Five years I have definitely leaned a lot and experienced a lot… But I feel so far away from where I want to be and I often get lonely… Do you sometimes feel like that?
We have to do our best and make the most of every opportunity, and be Thankful for what we have. We can’t get lost in the “What ifs” we have to live in the now. That is the best I and you can do with Life… I believe God has a purpose for everyone but we also have free will. I don’t want to live with regrets. I don’t want you to have regrets either, so please follow your heart and listen to God. Every moment and every choice can and will affect your future… That includes how you treat others and what you say. “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.” –John 13:34-35
Make time to enjoy life, and don’t get so wrapped up in Must do’s and Have to do’s… They will get done. Take things one thing at a time and Don’t overload yourself and you will move forward one step at a time. Don’t over think because that’s a sure way to get stressed out which will lead to an emotional crash. Lets face it tho we all need a good cry once in a while. We all tend to bottle things inside until they explode… It is ok to cry. That is how God created us to be able to release our stress and feelings. And it is ok to talk to God honestly and Openly. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. -John 14:27
I know from experience. I took a huge leap of faith and moved across country and my life turned upside down! I keep bring that up because it was a huge deal. I know God won’t ever give you more then you can handle and you are never alone. “But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”-Philippines 4:19
I let go of the reins and I let God start guiding me completely. It hasn’t been the easiest road but it sure has been a wild adventure and I look forward to what God has for me in the future. I find peace when I don’t try to take the whole world on my shoulder. That is not easy for sure. We try so hard to Take charge and stay in control. But lets face it.. Sometimes in doing so we get lost in emotions, stress, needs, thoughts and we forget our main purpose. To lead others To Christ. To Love one another, which means being there for each other. (At least that is what I feel our main purpose is as God’s children.) “All things work for good for those who love the Lord” –Romans 8:28 Hold on to that when the going gets tough and remember you are never alone!
Sure we all have responsibilities. I am not saying neglect them.. But instead turn to God to help you with your needs and wants. And in doing so you will find comfort and peace.. ~Psalms 23~ We try so hard to be What we think we should be That God has to force us sometimes to take a break and just be in His presence. And Honestly where else would you want to be? That is where I want to be. Always in God’s will, Always in God’s Peace and love… No matter how hard things Get… I am so Glad I have Father God, Jesus and The holy Spirit with me. As do you! Do not be so hard on yourself. Only Jesus was perfect… It is impossible for us to be no matter how hard we try. But God loves us anyways and He wants the best for us!
For all men have sinned and have missed the shining-greatness of God.24 Anyone can be made right with God by the free gift of His loving-favor. It is Jesus Christ Who bought them with His blood and made them free from their sins. 25 God gave Jesus Christ to the world. Men’s sins can be forgiven through the blood of Christ when they put their trust in Him. God gave His Son Jesus Christ to show how right He is. Before this, God did not look on the sins that were done. 26 But now God proves that He is right in saving men from sin. He shows that He is the One Who has no sin. God makes anyone right with Himself who puts his trust in Jesus. -Romans 3:23-26 (NLV)
This has been my Yearly Reflection before my Birthday…
♥ you always
╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
My friend Kimmi tagged me for this on Instagram. I thought it was fun.
Since So few people are actually on Instagram and It’s about me. I thought I would Share it here in my Blog as well. I am sorry if you have read this already. I have to say It got me really thinking.. I leaned more about myself…
Here are 22 Facts about me.^.^
I am really surprised at how much I shared♥
1. I am a Christian, I live for the Lord!
2. I have an Associates in International Business, I had several business Dreams I hope one day to be able to Archive.
3. I have a Great Dane Dog But I would love to own a Lion!
4. I love People with a passion. I would love to go to school and get a Psychology and Pastors degree, so I So I could be a life coach of some sort, and Evangelize.
5. I am eating Ketyo now… I am a lot happier about myself now.
6. I am a Writer and Have my first book published “God Supplies and Miracles Happen”
7. I love Coffee!!! -Sushi, Milk Tea, and other Asian Delights as Much as I love Italian food.
8. Once I call you my friend your my friend for life. Unless you did something extremely horrible
9. I am part tomboy, clown, and part princess
10. I love animals of all kinds, I love leaning about animals
11. I Love: The wind, rain, cool weather rocks, water, weather.
12. My Favorite Bird is the Vulture – Ugly, gets along with all, Doesn’t kill unless the animal is dying. ♥
13. My dream is to go to Sweden.
15. I love Gummie Bears and Gummie worms by Black Forest
16. I don’t like Gossip, My pet ps are people talking bad behind my back. You have an issue with me tell me to my face.
17. I enjoy Korean drama’s, anime, cartoons, and movies of all sorts except horror!
18. I am empathetic, and bad at expressing myself, that is why I write
19. I collect Postcards, and playing cards with diff pictures on each cards among other things.
20. I love pen pal’s, I think that it should be preserved.
21. I don’t want to be rich and famous, but I’d love to be able to take care of my friends and family financially.
22. I’m Fascinated by: Dinosaurs, Bigfoot, space, and the Locknessmonster.
Life is hard, we often get lost in the things that have to be done and the things that we have to do. We even get lost in making sure that we get to have fun and do what we want. We get lost in our thoughts, pour plans and our goals…. Yes we have obligations and we don’t want to let people down. We have goals and desires and we want to follow our dreams. What are your dreams?
But why are we doing it? Why are we planing, why are we dreaming and what do we want most? Everything we do we are supposed to do it in love not just for the other people but love for our selves. We are important each and every single person and each and every single person has in me and that is not exactly like yours they have things and feelings that are not like you or me. So we have to do all that we do in love and when we do what we do in love no matter if it’s doing the dishes or going to coffee with the friend it’ll be much more pleasurable and you will feel more accomplished and joyful. We all need love to survive and people need need to feel appreciated needed. So listen more talk more and be there for each other more. When you’re by yourself be happy about who you are. You are Handsome and Beautiful, maybe not by the world’s standards but by Gods. And His opinion is all that matters… So do love yourself and have confidence. Because there’s no one like you your unique special and you touch people’s lives in ways that no one else can your life is important and I’m glad you’re alive!
╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
#CHD (Congenital heart defects) Grow up to be #ACHD (Adult’s with Congenital heart defects) If you have a CHD, you are a Survivor! Just like me. We are all born special in some way or another. Don’t let your CHD hold you back! We all have a purpose, we all touch lives and we help others in our own special way That God gave us… CHD may limit us physically but it can’t stop you! Thank God Your purpose isn’t mine, because without your unique gifts and talents, some of us may not have lived.. Don’t let others put standards and limits to what you can do. Only you can decide
If you are looking for a work out, or looking to help out anyways.. Seems they added a lot more options to the and websites since last year. This is awesome! #MendedLittleHearts #ACHA #FightToLive http://www.congenitalheartwalk.org/ —I encourage you to get involved in someway..
Happy Birthday to me!! Yes this sound a little vain, but let me explain… Today as you guessed it is my birthday! I am… If you know me I have always valued Birthdays to the max. I make big deals about everyone’s birthdays. Because Life is a blessing!! My mom’s birthday is April 6th. So I’m 33, Where has the time gone?? So mych has changed in just the past 4 years…
A Bit of History: The past few years I haven’t really celebrated my birthday. If you didn’t know my whole immediate family used to work at the “Kennedy Space Center” in Florida. Since NASA shut down the Shuttle Launches, my family’s life has been quite crazy. Everyone lost their jobs… My family started relocating spreading out moving way one by one. Everything was different. We were extremely close family. I mean every one has their issues but, its great when you have such a great family close by. So it was a huge finical and emotional strain. That was about 4 years ago.
In Jan 2011 I packed 5 suitcases and moved across country because God told me to. It wasn’t easy leaving all I knew and making that jump of faith. I took turns living with my mom and sister Amanda, living mainly out of 1 suitcase… It was quite the adventure really… Mainly because their landlords wanted to raise the rent if I would be permanently living with them. So I rode the train back and forth.. Not knowing when I’d feel relaxed and at home… But after about year I got my first rental house, which I loved! In a very small town, within a canyon. Birthdays’s were hard to get together for and often spent alone. Last year I moved again, which I was a bit angry about at first bit its been great since.
Last years Birthday was the worst I will ever remember! Because we got word my brother was very ill with cancer, so we all got together and went to go see him. (It was a blessing we were all together but, we completely ignored our birthdays.) It was very touching, very draining and over all very hard……
So when this year came along I was mad at the loss of loosing my brother, I was mad we’re all apart yet again, due to life. I only reached one goal, publishing my short story “God Supplies and Miracles Happen”. Honestly, I was depressed and angry… But I choose to buck up and clean my apt… I have come to the conclusion that cleaning brings you closer to God. You work out your stress and vent your emotions… Now I understand the saying “Cleanliness is close to godliness”.
This morning when I woke up, I was refreshed and reminded why Birthdays are so important. They are to celebrate life, life God gave us! No matter where we are, or who we are with, we need to take joy and be happy we can live another day, we have another day to work on our goals, etc.. So I am happy its my Birthday!! The day I was born into this world. Even with all the hardships I’ve endured, (not as much as some) I am happy to be alive.. Another day full of experiences…
If you are a gamer… The higher level you are the more experience you have, the better your gear and skills are… If we look at our ages as game level…. It makes aging so much better… So where ever you are, whomever your with, be happy about your age, and celebrate life to the fullest!!!
Now please excuse me while I go get ready to go run some errands and go to an early dinner with my Mom, and this weekend my sister Amanda and her Husband will come visit. And my mother and I will officially celebrate our birthdays together with all four of us… She’s the bigger person sharing her special day with me.. I am very blessed…
Ps. By the end of the year we will all be in one state again!! Even tho we may be a few hours apart its much better then across country!
Hello Dear Friends,
Wow what a crazy year it has been…. I can not believe all that has happened this year… This year seems like it was several years all wrapped up into one.. I forget what all I’ve written about… Last year I was angry and upset, I was lost and confused, I was drained and empty feeling, and it lasted up till November this year. I had a lot of falling outs with people and a lot of misunderstandings. I learned I suck at explaining things in words. I should stick to writing.. lol.. Even then is hard to express myself. I am happy now. I gave up trying to make things perfect, now I am just enjoying what life dishes out. What God has for me… That is really the best way to go… Falling into God’s will helped me fall back into my dreams and my joy. My passion is to help people via my written work and by me being me. That makes me happy…
I lost a lot this year but I gained so much in return. For the first time in many years I’m happy with who I am… I keep telling you: Only you can make yourself happy. And that’s mostly true.. If you lean to let go of all the hurt and stress you hold inside, and Let God in, is one way. Another is you can choose to be happy, choose to look for the good in every bad situation. Only you know what is holding you back and keeping you down…. Also having that someone who has faith in you and is constantly encouraging you and helping you makes a huge difference. I don’t know what I’d do without those awesome people in my life…
I may wear my heart on my sleeve, but its because I want you all to feel loved. There are so many different kinds of Love…. And I love you all. My heart was made big just so I could love you all. 😛 Some of you settle for just Like… Being liked is good enough… But you are better than that. You deserve to be loved… No one is perfect… We all mess up… That doesn’t mean we don’t deserve love….
I don’t know what I was planing on saying, I don’t know if anyone even reads this… Take this next year with a seed of hope.. Don’t let last year get you down. Tomorrow is a new day -wait better yet- a New Year!! So —- Make new choices… Make good changes to your life that will make you happier.. Don’t wait till midnight to do so. Do it tonight. Every one is suffering in one way or another, everyone has issues, some worse then yours believe it or not.. You are blessed and lucky to have what you do… If I could ask you to do only one thing and you would’ I’d ask you to let you wall down and let people in… We are made to need people… So many complain about not finding love…. But if you won’t let your walls down to let anyone in then it will never happen… I don’t just mean your one true love, it counts for friends and family love too… If you stay guarded, no one can get close… And you will keep staying empty and lonely.
Don’t Give up on your dreams, fight for them, I don’t believe anything worth doing or reaching comes easy….. If only it was…. Then life would be boring?? :p
Thanks for all the great memories this year, and the adventures God….. I thank you for tomorrow and t new year you are giving us… I pray it brings Joy, closure, togetherness, and fulfillment like never before!!!!
My biggest accomplishment this year was getting closer to God and publishing my personal short story
ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
I wish you, no matter where you are or, who you are with A wonderful Christmas!! And A Blessed New Year!!!
I was not sure where to start, I kept getting sidetracked with life. I didn’t have time to make an image for you……
Here I go…
This is my favored time of year for many reasons Such as: The weather and the fact that I love the holiday season. Thanksgiving through New Year’s… All because of: the giving, sharing, thankfulness, anticipation of new, beginnings, joy, and so much more in the air. I love the lights, the trees, the food, and most of all the family you generally get to spend time with. Family, close friends and relatives.. (Usually)
Sadly though, this time of year brings stress, anger, and loneliness to a lot of people. This is the first year in a a couple of years I have not felt so lost in emotions…. We all worry about if we have enough time to do what we want to do, do we have enough money, will our friends and families enjoy our efforts. And then there are those of us who do not have the pleasure of having people in our lives to share this time with and it brings out anger, resentment, and deepens the loneliness and pain. I know this all too well over the past few years for sure. They have been hard… I barely celebrated. But there is something really special. No matter what every Christmas Eve.. I get filled with this amazing peace and my heart fills with unexplainable thankfulness and all. I find myself staring at the Christmas tree and or lights for hours not thinking anything just in awe… It all started when I awoke from the coma in 1997 Just 2 days before Christmas… Maybe because of the many close encounters with death I am more sensitive to the holidays… This year it wasn’t my closeness with death that was faced. I lost my oldest brother to cancer…. But then in November my youngest sister Got married…. Such a wide variety of emotions…. I know for many this was a very hard year, but many of us have been blessed despite the troubles… Such as my parents finding a house after almost 4 years of searching… It never amazes me what God can do….. I know next year I and many others, feel it will be a year of closure and togetherness.. I am looking forward to that tho I feel the past few years have gone by way to fast… I hope to share some good things with you in the future tho. Like some books in the next year!!!
I wish you, no matter where you are or, who you are with A wonderful Christmas!! It is not about the Receiving, it’s about the joy of togetherness, the Giving of love and companionship… So many I know have been blessed with wonderful mates while others are still alone.. Our time will come singles! God’s timing is perfect and He or she will be exactly what we need… And more then we could ever want!!
This was supposed to be a sweet note of love, sorry I went on… I pray if you don’t know Jesus yet you take the opportunity to ask into your heart tonight… Don’t waste time waiting for the right moment or to be perfect. He loves you as you are and there is no better timing then now… Having a relationship with Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit is the best Gift I could share with anyone… God after all gave the best Gift Jesus… And that is what Christmas is all About… Celebrating his Birth, His life, and His Death so that we may be free of the chains of sin and be blessed with Eternal life!!! It’s easy just read this out loud.
“Dear Heavenly Father, I acknowledge I need you. (You do need Him) I welcome you Jesus into my heart, for you are the way and the truth and the light. (John 14:6) Please forgive me of my sins and be a part of my life form now on.. Thank you Amen” Now go tell someone what you did.
The devil comes to steal form you, to Kill you, and to Destroy you, but I come to bring you life and to bring it Abundantly.
You are Loved,
ི♥ྀ Amy Jane ི♥ྀ
Hello Dear Friends.
How are you? I feel a bit vain writing these 1 sided blogs… I’d love hearing from you..
With that said, I have moved! I am now surrounded by new fences, literally and I have discovered a bit emotionally, and mentally. I was mostly against this move, if you read my last post, I’ve had to give up a lot. However I have found that so far my new fences have brought me some peace, inside and out. Ill get into that more in a min.
First the news: Following tradition of most every move I’ve had…. I am having computer issues. My laptop cord broke! It took me a few weeks to notice because well.. I haven’t tried getting on due to unpacking, and life.. The bad news is, Now if i order one I may not get it in time for my trip to see my sister, her son, and my soon to be brother in law. Worse news: I don’t know if I can afford it, and I may be gone for up to five weeks. 0.0 Reality tho.. I may not have anytime to be online anyways….. I sure miss Maplestory and Wartune ……
I already miss my dear long distance friends and family… But The break has be a bit nice.. I had time to cool off from an emotional stress that I brought on myself. I was indeed very angry. This being the the third time I can remember being so angry….
My Dear friend Jim always tells me I need to talk about my issues before they come pouring out and nothing make sense only making things worse… Even tho I am a writer when it comes to my emotions, my wants and my needs. Nothing comes out easy. I don’t know why it is so hard for me to speak up or express myself. I tend to end up snapping at someone or putting up a wall, and acting goofy… Granted I act goofy and random in real life because I like to make people smile… But once in a while its a cover. Only one person has ever been able to call me on things and tell me things I needed before i needed it. I am so thankful to have that person in my life. I can’t what I would be like with out that person and other family and friends.
God made me who I am to be. I may make mistakes but I recover fast, I don’t hold grudges, I give people many chances, I love all…. A love only God could have given me for people. I wanna be a fisher of men. I want my life to reflect God’s amazing LOVE… If I fail at everything, except that, I will be fulfilled.. No matter how hard things get!
If your still reading, The move has gone pretty smooth, I live upstairs now. Behind my parents house. LilyBelle my dog loves the new place, and has adjusted really fast. She often gets to ply with my parents dog which has been great fro me. I am not close to being moved in I have the basics, my office is half set up.. I am slowly moving and unpacking boxes … I don’t have much help. but I am managing. I am sure when the time comes I will get the help I need for the rest of my office stuff. I am already dreading my next move. @.@ Only God knows when… I hope not for another year… Or before I get settled! doubt that tho.. lol.. I am sure exercising a lot as a result! Woot!
I have been itching to write but with my laptop down, I can not access my books. I am not very happy about that. Thank God I have notebooks galore! 😛
With all the new changes – fences- I almost feel like a new person. Not so new more liek myself before I let stress change who I am, and how i reacted.. I have a good deal more to go, but its progress. I pray the good changes keep coming and I keep getting improvng, and losing weight. I have places to go, dreams to follow, new fences to jump!
I have a new cell phone, I am still getting used to it…. It is a mini tablet, I can check my emails and webpages, etc via that.. So please E-mail me, Text me, call if you have my info~ if you want it just ask.
~I love ya All!! God bless you today and Always~
╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯